denisetan LOVE oscar saputra FOREVER ^-^

Lonly Weekend

2012-01-28T23:47:00.002+08:00

Hi pigbaby! IMISSYOU ^o^ hehe! Tomorrow faster come ah:D hehe behbi my weekend damn boring can! No you beside me:( sianz lehhh. I want you!! NOW! :D hehe! My baby so sweet ILOVEYOU FOREVER man HAHA! AISINILE^-^ I'm glad I met you first hehe!:B happyhappy!xD lonely cold night:( why you no accompany me :P hehe too happy liao don't know what to write anyway hehe imissyou luhhh! I want see you immediately now!!!! Insaneinsane heheh! Never thought that I would meet you outside eh:D happy:B ahhhh! Crazygirl me! Hehehe! Ohmygod!^+^ can you understand how I feel? Hehe! Huggy me okay:D hehe, whenever I want to do thing with you I get excited but when I see you I get scared! HahaxD why ah? When I'm alone, I want to be beside you but when I'm not I wanted to hug you! Muah you! But I'm scared. Hehe, bi stand closeclose to me :D because I feel protected. Just stand as close as possible:D okay:D hehe I love it anyway hehe loveyou okay MUAH goodnight my sweety:B

Unforgettable Morning

2012-01-27T23:26:00.001+08:00

Pigbaby:D hellooo!^o^ nice right! HEHE I know luh. ILOVEIT TOO man AWESUMMEE!! From your house walked with you along the nice quiet road. Ohmy! Ilove that place can so damn quiet no one at all! But then wwith you can luhh I alone, later kena raped or kidnapped ah. XP opps! HEHE! Joking ah. Won't happen. Hmm, yup then haha suddenly hand over me:D so close to you:D just love when I'm that close to you when the weather is just so suitable. HEHE -shy- then sit down, hehe baby first time ask me to hold hand. Eeee, got plan eh:D HAHAxD holding your hand so smooth and nice ah:D like unique only can ^o^ so nice to hear you say that my hand so small like adorable only right:D one and only horh! HEHExD miss it and its gone forever ^^ no luhh! :B Although its kinda shocked but still I love it :D hehe everything first time with you! Awwh likeasweet only can >w< hehe so happy :) HAHAxD sorry baby, accidentally stepped your shoe. Izzit pain? I apologise! XP almost falled lucky you behind hehe:P wah heng ah is a girl if boy ah wah disgusting much. :/ hehe at MRT why you hold my hand ah??? Hehe nice also haha anything that's matter with you is awesume want:D but then inside the cabin no romance but then hehe we chatted quite a lot! Behbi talk more luhh! :D interact with MEE!^-^ andandand baby YOU ARE THE BEST<3 Iloveyou >m< MUAH sleep early hope can meet you on sunday !Hate weekend:( cannot see my sweety:'( hehe if got meet I'm gonna hold your hand walk around like nobody's business ! MUAHAHAHA!xD hehe evilme(: sit double-decker bus! We sit on top:D and talk:D muahmuah>-< HEHE okokay I stop here le! Byebye Cx

Happy Day

2012-01-26T23:57:00.000+08:00

Hi behbi! Hmm.. Today we chat a lot huh. Hmm more than usual :D hehe! But then why I still feel weird weird? Behbi you not gonna leave me right. Right?? Ahh, morning you very cold is it? Haish, I thought fire is always fire, hehe or because ice/water beside you so you melted? XP hehe, want to hold your hand lehhhhh! Let me prist!!!!:P hehe, we so cute meet only in the morning :( bleh! Kinda sad not same school, hope we can stay in touch more. So still got the feeling there also. ^^ sorry, but I'm just gonna LOVE you only. Trying to make my world with GIRLS ONLY! Boys out! :B hmm.. Sorry if when I make you bored, irritated. I try my best to cheer you up, let your smile out or laughter out. I'm sorry if I failed, BUT the feeling still same eh:B FOREVER same ma! HEHE, hmmm anyway nice seeing you in the morning before I go school:D you 'sound' cold when texting but I believe its what you normally would react??? Nvm this want I understand. HEHE so excited to see my baby tomorrow:D ahhh! Hehe baby cute eh^^ cause my baby is number 1 :D love the way you bully joke around with me:B opps hehe, that's the way I can really let down everything and have a small mini relaxing conversation with my cutey sweet behbi. HEHE! Trying to be more family friend like with you, treating you as a normal person. Because being with you like must be perfect like that, so trying to make myself comfortable with you. :x HEHE nice chatting with you huh just now Cx HAHA hmm so see ya tomorrow:B hehe baby talk more^o^
Loveyou, Denise(: MUAH>m< nights

Its Just Another Day

2012-01-24T20:27:00.002+08:00

Hihi, baby I think you won't wanna talk to me right. I'm sorry for making you like this. I just wanna tell you the truth. I don't want to hide anything from you but didn't expect this thing to happen. Apology, i really didn't expect it to happen. But saying I have no one to love. Hmm, I guess its not really true, its not because I have no one to love its because my LOVE to you has never changed since last year. I tresure you well I let you do what you wanted because I don't wanna disappoint you I don't wanna be a bad girl, I just wanna be your girl. :( matters of lasting for how long, it doesn't matter how long we last but how happy we are when we are together. Maybe just maybe we were able to last till the end, we don't know. But if we don't appreciate what's now then what a drag! Or either is you have no feelings toward me? I had tried to clam down, I never complain I tried my best to make you comfortable with me. Did I failed? I had never wanted anyone else but just YOU!! I am just too scared of losing you again. I don't know why you got nothing to say but if you got nothing to say how are you gonna chat with me like that? What happen behbi? I really need you in life why you no want me? Why you no feel the same way as I am? :( hmm you like this what am I suppose to do? Believe yourself believe me! We are together no matter what. Share your problems with me alright? Don't face it yourself. Piggy, no one can love you as I did. :D then do we still meet tomorrow? Oh my I feel like killing myself damn useless can. :( I got nothing to say but just let you know I am just ME I don't care about anything I just wanted to end my life with you. No matter what happen in life as long as you trust me I won't disappoint. This time round, I'm serious. And, why are you having negative thinking? :( you told me not to have, so do you. Take away the negative put in the positive please! :'( I know you can! Where is the oscar I've known few days ago? Weeks ago? Please come back!!! You said past past, now how come?

Nothing Is Impossible

2012-01-22T19:18:00.000+08:00

Piggybaby:D hmm just now did I say something wrong? :( I don't know why I always ask you this kind of question there's always some hurting words in it. I cannot predict if whether we can last long but as long as we stays together face problem together give each other chances there's nothing that is impossible right. I don't know how you feeling but what I know is that the past is the past, you've said past things just let it past. Now is now, don't think so much can:( I know its good to think about it but not everytime. So, this round time let's make it prefect make it worthy. As for future, nothing is impossible you may not know if we can last. I want to make it happen I trust you so please trust me and make nothing become something. You may think we won't last but I trust if we put in the effort why not. We don't let go! Hold tight tight! And don't say this kind of things le can. Sorry I know you want to let me know. But I just wanted you no one else!! If can I hope forever be with you. I'm not the old denise anymore. I'm a brand more denise who would do whatever things to make oscar saputra happy smile and laugh:D

Love denise(:
Loveyou baby^^

The Baddest Day

2012-01-18T23:58:00.002+08:00

Hi sexylazypigbaby!(: first of all I want to apologise. Sorry for the punishment you had just now at school. 75 pumping + nagging. I feel bad I know you say its alright but I just feel that is all because of me you kena scolded. :( anyway, why the teacher want to complain to your form teacher? The teacher jelly? O.o :'( hold hand cannot? :( why siah. Also no rule that says cannot hold hand outside with uniform? Haish, alright say no more:( later baby angry:/ no hold then no hold lo. :( ~~suffering~~ when can I hold my sexybaby's warm hand? If I cold how? Wah liao:( my hand will freeze into ice without the fire to warm it down:C nvm ah, can see my sweetestbaby beside me can liao. Talktalk lo, at least better than nothing. Since your parents approve you to be with me why not? Ahhh! Okay then «topic stop» hmm, anyway nothing can stop me from loving you eh:D wear home clothes or wear jacket lo, like this can hold liao right? Opps! XP okay luhh, later I kena wahh! Sianzzzzzz #yawn# :O ask my baby do 75 pumping never die before izzit, wahliao. I make the time stop ah you die lalalalalalala! :( *stillsad* how? I want my baby's warm hand lahhh! Why no allow arg! :( to prevent my baby getting scolded I don't hold already luhh. Hmm... Wah I sad siah! Tomorrow talk to you ah baby! :( SORRY DEAR!! :'( okok goodnight hubby^o^ MUAH>w< :'( [SOB]

Happy Moment In The MRT[1]

2012-01-17T23:37:00.002+08:00

Hi baby! Sorry for the late update. Hmm then I'll start from here. Actually, I'm so looking forward to tomorrow's morning meeting with you. XP Yup, I'm kinda already used to have your exist around me. Can't concentrate on a particular thing for one hour, seriously at home I can't really do my work eh 8P mind set are all of you! HehexP ohh you still remember when we went down potong pasir MRT? You grab hold of my hand hehe, kinda like it anyway. ^-^ opps, I espcially liking at the MRT with you. Ignoring others, we look so sweet. HehexD this is my very first MRT with you baby:D feeling so happy and great! ^-^ first time kiss you, I'm feeling so nervous. Sorry if I did anything wrong. XP kinda embarassed:( but then I kissed your cheeck:D hmm^^hehe
Okay ah, sorry, I keep late replying you. I feel a bit gulit. Sorry , I was sleeping and now feeling so whattheshyt! Got scolded by parent or what? I'm feeling abit frustrated. I think mood swing? Sorry, anyway sleep early eh. MUAH>w< goodnights baby

Angry + Happy

2012-01-12T18:22:00.000+08:00

Hello lazypigbaby:D hehe every morning was an AWWHHSUMMEE day for me :B I love it^^ muahaah hmm.. Oh the bus just now morning I was thinking if you were right next to me, I was thinking of head lying on your shoulder and sleep. :P hmm.. But I was alone anyway. Hehe, hope you can come guangyang. If not also nevermind:x morning can see you can already. Awwh! I saw my friend walking home with her boyfriend. I jealous siah!!! Ahhhhhh! :( haish, sadsad! :'( oh! Wah liao, just now in class I sibei angry at english lesson! Whatdafug please! This nerd childish friend of mine, wah make me sibei angry, I never disturb her. Then, she come irritat me. Wah lau! Pissed siah! -.-' I take the white board marker and write something on the board, this freak-ing nerd girl tell me what you know, she say' eh denise you now not a monitor liao' whatdafug please luhh! I also never say I'm a monitor, you also not right then come talk big to me -.-" what lau sibei pissed please! Opps, ps I'm so damn pissed lo. -.-" hmm... Anyway, I'm so tired. After doing stuff bathe wanna take a nap or early sleep. See ya tomorrow. Early goodnights kiss! MUAHHHHH!!! Next time confirm give you the real want. HehehxD on the cheeck. ^^ tomorrow same old things again! Last but not least, I'm really damn cold luh baby! I won't bluff you want:( must trust me! If I'm not cold, I won't hold your hand de! Heheeh, nope will hold also:D like that I will feel more protected and comfortable:D hehe!xD

Awesome Wondeful

2012-01-11T22:38:00.000+08:00

Lazypigbaby:D baby, your nickname for now onwards. :B nice name.^^ hehhe, oh hmm about this morning wahh!!! So nice! I want hold your hand somemore lehh! So warm. Seriously I'm not that cold when I hold your hand! I swear! Is damn warm eh your hand. Why eh? Tell me ah :D hehe! Tomorrow let me hold hehehe^-^ everyday hold once in the morning. Progessing le piggy, happy? :D hmm, today cca I got injuried:( my tumb like kena sprained. The bone ah like broke eh. Till now still pain eh. :( hehe, sianzz I got nothing to say just feel so excited to meet you tomorrow:D YEEEEEE!!!! XD OVERCRAZY! HehehexP hmm.. Then I'll stop here! Seeya baby! Iloveyou every single second of the day.:D muah! Sleep early:B missya too>w< MUAHHHHH on your cheeck ah! ^^ then got more feeling:B muahehehexD okay then goodnights! I'm supa tired now. Nighty:D

Comfortable Moment

2012-01-10T22:28:00.002+08:00

Hello baby, hmm now our relationship is like better than previously. I hope this goes on & on & on. Till the day we got married, we won't have to worry so much about leaving ones side. Dont know will it happen but hope god would let the both of us be together. Hehe, hmm okay so just to say that my happiest moment are when we are chatting sweet stuff together. I like to 'see' you laughing or smiling. Although you are not but its just nice seeing it:B HAHA ohmy, I wont really feel uncomfortable saying stuff like that to you. Although there's a bit but I'm more or less quite used to it talking to you about those kind of matters already. ^^ hehe this morning was an awesome morning I've ever had man seriously. I didn't know I'm that brave enough to hold your hand but because my baby asked for it so I have to fulfill it for you:D its the starting^^ HOORAYYY!!! I love you baby! Muah>< hehe! LOVEYOU MORE THAN EVER! But at moments I do feel myself abit irritating. Maybe its because you are busy so you did not reply me. But dear you have to tell me, don't let me have negative thinking. Sorry to say but you got to let me know when you are busy alright. Still you are the one I LOVED the MOST!!!! HEHE AISINI LE!!!! HAHAXD INSANE AH ME! XP hehe, okay luhh gotta go to my world LALA land le. GOODNIGHT BABY! ILOVEYOU!!!! MUAH>w< nightsnights^^ haha I'm crazy inside but very calm at the outside. MUAHAHA!!xD

My Feeling That Had Hidden Deep Inside

2012-01-09T23:08:00.001+08:00

Hihi baby! :D today morning was quite fun. Although we didn't talk much but then hehehe, its really nice seeing you everyday morning. But just now at class, me having lesson, my mind started to appear things of you at school; wondering what are you doing? Who have you been talking to? Have you smile or talk to any girls? I know I am not allowed to think of this ah but it just happen to pass through my mind. How I wish you were in my school or I were in your school. :( but sadly we are not. Ehh, you know after school right we were thinking of meeting but then you say tomorrow morning right. Although I said 'okay.' But my mind had a little angry with this matter but my heart asked me to calm down. So, I cool myself down. I know is not your fault it me too despo to want to see your face. Sorry about it anyway. Hmm, about now I feel kinda uncomfortable cause hmm.. Unprotected? Or just scared one day I may lose you? Idk! I may be seems happy but deep down, I'm really very scared very sad:( now I really feel like crying! Real out loud! :"""( I had always wanted to go to the beach and shout as loud as possible. Sometimes, I really don't know what are you thinking about. I'm like going mad, keep on thinking of things that may or may not happen. :( what's wrong with me? Is this good or bad? Afraid of you being snatch by someone else? :( I swear eh I'm really scared! :( baby what to do? Tell me? I really don't want to lose you eh baby:(

Dream I Wanted In Real Life

2012-01-08T23:13:00.001+08:00

Hey baby, tell you something. Just now in the morning, I had a dream after whatsapp-ing you. You know primary school right we need to assemble at the court? Yea and the weather is so windy and its cold, I just came and sat down at the class row. At the same time, I saw you walking towards me and you sat down behind me. Then, for don't know why you were holding my hand, chitchatting with me. Awwh, laughing away man. So sweet, like no body cares. :) how I wish it is real I really really wish I can hold your hand and shout out loud and say "OSCAR IS MINE!!" Hehe, abit too over ah. XP hmm, anyway to say that I'm so lucky I had you! Really, you gave me feelings that I've never had. Yeah, please talk to me more and make me feel comfortable with you. Especially when I'm had no mood , talk to me and 'be there' for me. Ya, same goes to me too. Share me your burden, we are together. No matter what, good things or bad things, share it with me. I'll try not to feel shy as I had started to feel quite comfort while chatting with you. Smiling away. :B hmm, I hope I would have fun time with you. Ahh, next time older go overseas together :D hehehehxD fun ah! Okay cancan! ^^ alright I stop here then. Loveyou baby, yeah! Tomorrow morning seeing baby! :B missya

Rubbish

2012-01-08T01:22:00.001+08:00

Hi there my 'cutey' pig! Hmm, sorry for not updating. Hehe, I'm just too busy thinking of you anyway. And totally forget to update. 'Enjoying' life. :/ hmm, what to say? Ehhhhh, oh okay. So, yeah currently having great relationship with you baby:D I'm happy because I have you. Mistakes learnt, I will not quarrel with you anymore. But then, in case anything happen must tell me. I have nothing more to expect because all I need is you. I know I may disappoint you or whatever I do to you, I try not to. Because I still need you in life. About future, let's not talk about it. I feel quite uncomfortable. Anyway, I'm still young like don't know what, so I wish to have just a normal happy memorable life. Oh shit, ahhhhh, I'm speechless. Too long never blog I'm kinda out of words to say. Ohhh, hmm got one, for this relationship now, I hope my future would end with you. Truthly, I just wanna be with you every single moment. Would it be fun when after we had our child a home, a dog? ^^ I think yeah! Cause I have you you have me! Without me you, nothing is perfect. Hehe, to add in, I like the way you call me. Sweetttt lah! :S how good would it be if I'm invisible, every single day looking at you without you knowing I'm actually staring at your face, wanting to give you a 'muah' on the cheek of yours. Then watch the way you sleep, laugh, smile, talk, angry. Everyevery single thing!!! I know I am not perfect but i have my own character. Hehe, opps Okay, tomorrow then continue, I'm tired. Anyway, last thing iloveyou babe! :D you've totally changed my day, my mood, my life, my everyevery thing! Iloveyou MAX! >< And I miss you too baby! Still miss friday morning, sitting beside you! Ahhhhh! I miss that place and you! :( so close! :D hehexD its like having a world like no body cares! Hehe, alright bi whatsapp me before you sleep. I won't reply. Just whatsapp, say that you're done or you're sleeping now! Okay, yawning! Ah, good might! I sleep le morning whatsapp me immediately when u are up! :B loveyou my dear!

Things Say From The Bottom Of My Heart

2011-12-30T01:00:00.000+08:00

Hey boy whoever ya, hmm being busy with cca for the past two days. Kinda tired but true enough its AWEESUMEE man! Loveit volley ACE :> hehe, starting to like my cca. Although tough but still having great games with all seniors. Anyway, after all the busy tiring day, not forgetting about you. At least a few times you had past by through my mind. Today, if I were to reach toa payoh interchange at around 2.00pm ++ will I be able to saw you? Guess so, but sadly I missed this perfect chance. Still do have feelings, so do you??? :( still would cry over past things, past stupid me. Every single things with you. Memorable but its just memory. :B you're not alone I guess. But I'm kinda alone by myself. Trying to make myself as busy as possible. But, no matter what I still do think of you. What to do, miss it and just thinking of it. Nothing could be done by then. Do I even past by your mind? Do you miss the time we've been through? Will you care like you always do? Ya you know for me that's a ofcourse. Forever is nothing, a lifetime is what called happiness. Being with someone you loved, no matter how jealousy the other party gets, how many times the quarrels get, how things become; bad or great, how much you regret doing this saying that. Of all this, you just wanted to say a sorry, learn from it and get back to where you are and start anew. Mistakes could be change but if feelings change everything changes. Now, once someone did a small mistakes everything is gone like this. That is why people get heart break, think if you were to put in more effort concentrate love more than what you could give, nothing is impossible. Chances are always given to us, once missed no worries, it would come again. Be patient and wait for it, no point hurrying a things. It would end up hurting self & others.

Words For You, Please Forgive Me

2011-12-27T23:35:00.000+08:00

Hey babe, so sorry for the over concern for you. :( I didn't know about it. Anyway, thanks for telling me. Sorry for the quarrel, I think its hard to go back to where we are already right. :( once again thanks for putting the password with your name and my name :D I feel that I'm not being forgotten. Truely I'm very sorry babe! Since I know your password, i will try not to get jealous then. I think quite a lot. :B I dont know how you feel towards me, but I know my feeling towards you. No one can compare to you. You're just you, no matter how much you've changed you're just the one I loved. I know you can't accept me now. I will try my best to convince you. I may not be the prettiest girl, slimmest girl, smartest girl, hottest girl, kindest girl, whatever girl. I am not perfect. You may dislike me but I can't dislike you no matter how much I wanted. Opps, hmm no lah. :P anyway, my love to you is one & only! You can don't believe me but my feeling, love to you is truely real. Countless love to you. :B I may hurt you irritate you but at the end of the day you're all I ever think about. :D REMEMBER!!!!! No matter where you go, what you do, how you treat me, I won't change heart. If I did, is because I can't get you or you don't want me. But still won't lah. Heart die you forever. Hope I won't disappoint you again. I feel bad everytime. Sorry won't help. Prove it I know. I will! Lastly I miss you babe! :( don't angry le. I promise won't quarrel with you already. Keep my bloody mouth shut le. Okay, loveyou always ^-^

Lonely Night

2011-12-26T23:59:00.000+08:00

Hey babe, hmm still looking at my blog? :D never chat with you for today. Miss me? Opps! Sorry, but I hope at least a bit anyway. Scared to start the chat anyway, scared you won't reply scared I would say something wrong. I guess you had seen my fb message? Yup, sorry I need some one to talk to but I feel weird telling my "secret" to someone I'm not familiar with. Hehe, I wonder you still care about me? Hmm?? Really life without you is like a torture. Would we be together one day? But anyway, what you do I will respect it. #speechless hmm, okay now is all up to you. No matter what remember what you say and what I say and I will always be there whenever you need me. :B iloveyou only can say it here. Anyway, yah Imissyou too. ^-^

Stupid Me

2011-12-25T20:59:00.000+08:00

If I had never bother about your thing, I won't be feeling so pathetic already. :( whatever I do, is all my fault. When has it become the both of us? Why everything we quarrel, I'm always the one feeling gulity. See, let me tell you. I bother is because I care! I concern about you. Whatever I do, is all because I'm afraid of losing you. You see everytime when I patch with you we quarrel, you ignore me, I beg you, then what's next. :( why can't we do it in a both of us argee way. I know I'm harsh! You know, I care!!!! I CARE! If I don't care, I won't even bother! We promised each other! Be a man of your words! Remember this is what you said to your friend. Do it and show it! :( *sorry* I'm harsh. Sorry, my bad. Anyway, wait! Yup, one thing! You propose to meeee! :( but anyway, still its hurt to say but still I respect you, whatever happens remember I'm always gonna be there for you! :B no matter rain or sun, I will be there! I'll BE THERE!!!!!!!! :( dont lost trace when you return. When we 23 23!!!!!! Married and have fun. :B 4 child! Bussiness ! Indonesia life. Every every thing. Please!!! Don't forget!!! Promised!!!!!!!! :( promised le lahhhhhhh!! :"(

Feelings For You

2011-12-24T14:52:00.001+08:00

Babe, I know I'm doing thing too over. I just don't wanna lose you. You know me, I'm always getting jealous right. I know you are confused, mad at me. But look I haven't even tried to prove my love to you. I am suppose to be YOURS! I don't want you to have feelings for others. I want to be with you forever. I know I made a lot of mistake but please understand please! Don't ignore me, you know me right. I always feel guilty after quarrel, I never think before I say some thing. I knew this, my heart broke, seriously I wanteto talk to someone so I called yujun I talk to her. I ask her should I tell you about the thing or not, she say should tell you. But then I asked her really? Ya, not her fault anyway. All is my fault. But then I really cannot lose you. I finally get you back, we even promised each other. I trusted you you trusted me. Really please babee! I'm really sorry. I do that is because I wanna have you only. I can't bare to see you being sweet with others. Remember how sweet we were, remember how we promised each other, remember how you bully me, remember how we chatted at night, remember how horny you were, remember how good we bully each other. So happy that time! I feel I'm being blessed by everyone. Please don't leave me! I'm overreacted. You said you know me. So, please don't end the relationship. I beg you babe! Should I knee down infront of you and beg you? I can if I had the chance. Everything broke my heart when ever things are not about me! :( babe, don't go will you. You even propose to me. Don't leave me alone. :(

"Reflection"

2011-12-23T01:19:00.000+08:00

I'm sorry for being too harsh just now. I just can't take it when the situation is like this. Okay, I'm jealous. I admit it. But then, you had feeling for her okay, understand. What to do, don't talk to her, don't pay attention on her. You know I'm scared. I'm really scared. I'm scared of losing you one day. I finally get you back, I don't want to let go that easy. It hurts when you say you can't promised me I'm gonna be your last kiss last girl? Ohmy, I feel like jumping down from the building man. Now, I feel extra. I love you from the bottom of my heart. I put you on my very first priority. You make me feel so scared. Real scared. Imma sorry for the attitude towards you just now. I apologise to you. I really don't know the li san thing. Imma going to ignore it. Sorry for making you feeling bad. I just wanted to let you know I don't wanna lose you. :(

Saddest Momment èver

2011-12-23T00:39:00.000+08:00

My heart broke seriously. Is like you take out your heart and cut it in to pieces. :( I can't believe it. :"( should I say? Keep it? :( ohmygawk. I feel like crying out loud. Why why you? You! :( I don't want to be a fool out of nowhere. Sad, heart broken, confused. :"( am I wrong? Or what happen?

Things That I Love

2011-12-19T23:59:00.000+08:00

I love it when at the end of each day, I could call and talk to you. :B even if the first part of the day is very tough but when I get to hear your voice, my day was so worth it. :D hehe because what I love the most was to talk to you. This is one of my favourite thing I love in this world wide world. :> without you, I won't be able to know the feeling of losing someone that I loved. I can promised you that I would love you no matter what happen. If someone came and disturb, then I don't know can I be able to live without you not leh. You're just like my life my heart, once its gone I'm gone. Get it? :B hehe, YEE! Happy tomorrow can chat with you. Cx hope you won't end the call so fast or wake up late. :( I want to take that talk to you more. Because I miss you shooo much. :( hehe, okokay gotta sleep le. MuahxD

A Day Out

2011-12-18T21:00:00.001+08:00

Hehe today went out with mum's friend and herself to tampines to eat swensens. We meet at tampines interchange at 1.30pm. Ate chicken baked rice, came after everyone is almost done eating. -.-' err?? Then walk around shop here shop there. I almost freezed to death man haha at a shopping centre. Damnit it's freaking cold man. Somemore I'm wearing no sleeve shirt sia. Wah!! Poor me:( then went to play at a small arcade. Fun while playing with the slide board game. xD haha after that went for dinner at 6++pm. I ate tomyam noodle, nice + spicy + sour. Haha, drank bunddang and desert. Ohmygawk, full and almost explode man. Went to toilet afterward, mum and I accidentally went into the boys toilet. Wah, lucky inside there's no one haha. Joke of the day man. Yah, then after that we walk around and back home. :B hehe, fun time sia. Laughing away, muahahahahxD
And every moment I was hoping that you are there with me eh. Hehe, so when I'm cold I can hug you hahahahxD but sadly you are at home :( hehe. Alright I'll stop here then.

"First" Time

2011-12-17T23:58:00.000+08:00

Hey babe, yeah you've reached singapore since yesterday 7.00 ++pm?? Hehe I don't know. Anyway, you're safe back in singapore. I miss you so much. :( never chat with me for one whole day leh. #sob cannot like this le okay. I will die ah if you never chat with me again. VnV hehe, your voice is always so sweet and unique. :B I like your voice, your break voice hehe feel so comfortable muahahaCx Yee!!! Chatted with you for 24minutes & 46 seconds. Butthen, I hate it when someone came to interrupt me when I'm sweettalking with my baby. Damnit prease! -.-' I WANNA BE INVISIBLE!!! ARG!!! Hateit man prease prease!!! Cry:(. Hehe baby alone with auntie at home, make me feel like going there find you chatchat. Hehe, stay there for one night. Hahah!!! Impossible huh but then nvm, can hear your voice is already very de good le. :D okay, gonna sleep now. Wakey up at 9.00 to 10.00am plusplus. Goodnight, my sweetbaby. I'll always LOVE you. Muah>w< kisses for you.

Day 34

2011-12-15T20:39:00.000+08:00

Babi! I miss you. T.T Today the whole day I didn't get to chat with you leh. V.V I miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss YOU!!! Cannot whatsapp:( argg! Whattheshyt! :'( anyway, babe don't worry I will be with you till die even after die my heart will always be with you! You're the key to my heart. ^-^ hope we become husband wife. MUAHAHAHAHA!! Cx no one to chit chat with le. Comecome pei me immediately! I damn miss my baby! TnT I feel like dying without you accompanying me. DIE!!!!!! I die liao lah! Where are you lah! Don't leave me alone leh I don't like being alone. Today de training hen tough my waist very de pain leh. :( For awhile nia but its damn pain sia. TwT FASTER COME PEI ME LAH!! IMISSYOU + ILOVEYOU! Muahmuahmuahmuahmuah>< kisses>w< {()} huggy {()} comecome give me one warm hug! Hehe, I stop here le huh. :D byebye~ :B

Day 27

2011-12-08T23:24:00.001+08:00

Babe, I love the way you chat with me the way you treat me!!!! One and only. Iloveyou>< muahahaha, know what I hope that my family can accept you. I just want to be with you. Babe you had change to a better guy iloveyou. Muahehehe. :D you make me love you little more each day. I WANT YOU!!!!! AHHHH, mad girl!! I love chatting with you like how we did this afternoon. Hehe funny + fun + awesome chat I've ever got in my whole damn life okay. :D you're mine le no one can snatch you away from me. NO ONE!! Hehe being selfish but I don't like girlgirl come talk to my baby. Hehe, get jealous easily luh. But what you say " you are mine now" hehe. Remember for life okay. Hahahaha. Okokay, update it next time ba. iloveyou, OSCAR SAPUTRA. ONE & ONLY!!!

Day 24

2011-12-05T00:53:00.000+08:00

Hi babe! Yee!!! I'm able to call you once again.
Bi, trust me I will love you forever. If I ever dumped you, just kill me. :D hehe, sorry for those words previously. From now on, I will love you with all my heart. No matter what, I will choose to trust you. I have learn from all my mistakes, I will not let it happen again. But still, baby don't do things that is not necessary, no I mean just love me like how you love me right now. :D anyway, I feel so happy wth you. I WANT TO LIVE WITH YOU. :D hope tomorrow wake up, and I'm 21. Woohoo!!! Hehe, not possible. 8P opps, gotta sleep now. Nights baybee. Loveyou.

Day 13

2011-11-24T17:22:00.000+08:00

hihi am i still able to call you babe? :( sorry for the interrupt this few days. i'm too desperate for you. :I if you were me, you will feel the same. i know you will feel irritated? i understand? still sorry. i don't know why you don't want me. i know you need time but i'm afraid you will lost feeling for me. my love to you is nothing? :( i will not quarrel will not make you angry anymore. but why you still don't want to come back to me? am i not perfect for you? its hurt seeing you like this towards me this few days. saw your fb pic, didn't know you will go dye hair. nice, but like a gangster. sorry, no right to judge.:( i just want and NEED one thing from you. that's YOU!! please, should i beg you? knee down? please come back. if you love me why hesitate? :( am i not true enough? :( future? why think so far? i just want you and be happy with you. share everything with you. why cant i get you? whywhywhywhywhy? I DON"T GET IT. :( WHYYYYYYYYYYYY??

Day 8

2011-11-19T23:36:00.001+08:00

Hihi, babe today is so called my happiest day after you "break" me :( ouch! Hurts a lot please. :(
Finally, I"m able to know what happen. :( I had waited, suffered for quite a long period of time. :"(
Yup, hmm after we married you bringing me to indo. Alright, why not? Hey, I'm your wife already leh. :DD and in the end I'm leaving my house(where I'm staying at now) because I'm married, I'm not suppose to stay with my parents. Ya. :DD & why cannot be with me? :(( your the only guy I wanted to be with leh. How can you leave me alone? :(( hmm, no matter what I'm gonna get you back. To exchange with my life for you, I will give. Because no matter what, I'm just gonna be with OSCAR SAPUTRA!!!!!!

Day 7

2011-11-18T22:40:00.000+08:00

Hi, I'm a bit no mood after seeing your fb message huh. :"( are you flirting? Somemore my friend? Wahh, I feel like crying. :'( I'm not your girlfriend but then I still love you so much. :( I will feel jealous kay. Sorry. But your fb message? Still give number? Wahhh! You don't put me in mind liao. :( sorry to be negative. Sorry , you may be saying you don't like them but its just the feeling. :( WEI!!!! Why torture me? :( babe, I really love you de. Why you don't want to patch with me? :"( am I that disgusting? :( why? :"""(

Day 5

2011-11-16T21:42:00.000+08:00

Hihi. :D babe, why you suddenly so sweet to me? What happen? :( but I like it :DD hehe. Hmm, I still don't get it why you suddenly so nice to me? :( ahhh! I want cry. I wanna hug you also. I miss you all of a sudden. :"( baybee, tell me what's going on please. I'm blur like seriously. :( wahhhhhhhh!!! Hehe. Wah, baby you're online. Can chat with me? Blehh. Hehe. I hope you can remain the way you treat me. :DD ohh, bibi, today got training ma then my shoe because very big then make until my leg the skin tear. Although is just as small as a dot but its very de pain leh. :( come concern me? Blehh. Hehe. Nvm. Ehh, hao ba. I will stop here then. :DD write tomorrow?

Day 4

2011-11-15T18:51:00.000+08:00

Aww! Never chat with me again. You have no feelings for me already right. You had given up on me already right? :( you're not gonna patch back with me already right. You hate me already right. Everything everthing is gone. But I don't want you to break with me. :"( I don't want. Seriously. Don't want. :( everytime you online on fb, I actually wanted to talk to you. But you always never reply me. :( oscar, what are you thinking? Seriously? What's on your mind NOW?????????? :( tell me will you? Please. :( don't leave me alone. :( please.

Day 3

2011-11-14T19:20:00.000+08:00

Hey babe, sorry never reply you. I got volley today. So, never reply you. :( ahhh, regret much. I WANT TO TALK TO YOU!!!! Wah, after volley like a tired only. :'D its been three days le. We haven't really get to chat with each other. :"( but nvm. I understand. :DD have you been seeing my blog? Should I change my blog name again. So, I will be able to know are you looking or not ma? :"( babe, wo miss ni. :( when coming back. Faster come back can? :"( sigh! Don't know what to do sia. Why leave singapore? Cry ah. :"( hao la, don't write le. Tomorrow then write. :"(

Day 2

2011-11-13T21:59:00.000+08:00

Its the second day after you left singapore. I went out with mum& bro to orchard. At that moment, I hope you were there with me. XP yeash. But not possible. ^-^Today raining was so heavy. Super heavy. But now the rain had stop.:DD ohh, wanna tell you something. Hmm, yesterday there was this one guy, he is my senior's cousin. My senior is my friend, sec3 boy. Hmm not interested okayy. Not very close also. I'm ONLY interested with you. :DD yupyup, my senior asked me to go out but I can't plus don't want. His cousin suddenly came add me on fb. Idk who is he and I added him. Then, he started talking to me for no reason. Then, he was like flirting or what.. Keep on chatting with me ah. Going mad. -.-" hmm, ya then he keep harassing me. :"( okay, drop that topic. So, how are you? Talk to me half way then stop le. Helping your dad with the work there? Remember take care of yourself alright. One more thing, babe I miss you. Do you miss me? ^-^ hehe, thanks for starting the conversation. Iloveyou oh. Haish, tomorrow got training. Sianz. Hmm, write tomorrow then. :DD

The Day You Left

2011-11-13T00:20:00.000+08:00

Babe, today you left singapore. I start to miss you already. Fast huh. MuahahahxD hmm, I'm curious about something, why you suddenly text me and still "say" ' bye my dear'?? Can I say that you actually think of me before you left singapore? :"( but its nice to see you calling me that. Hehe. That's what I like. The way you call me. I love it. ^-^ baybee, what are you thinking? Are you gonna give me a chance? Please. I'm sure this time I will treasure you well. :"( pleaseeeee.... Let me have you again. You still have feelings for me? Deardear, today never chat with me huh. Reach there safely le ma? Don't keep on working, always take a rest. Don't make yourself get too tired. Take care of yourself. Ok, chat with me soon. Iloveyou dar. You MUST sleep early don't fall sick, you know I hate it. Okayy, got to go, write tomorrow. :DD woaini.^-^

Don't Go

2011-11-10T23:21:00.000+08:00

Babe don't leave me alone. I don't want you to go. Please stay. :( should be meeting today want. You said meet up before you go. But never. I'm crying. Lol. Yupp, babe please, talk to me. Please. Let me have some time with you can. Please!!!!!! Reply me. Will you. :(

I Wanted To Call You

2011-11-10T20:45:00.002+08:00

I'm bored now at home. Nothing to do. I wanted to call you, will you answer my call? Will we talk? I just want to hear your voice. Ha, I know how to hear your voice already have an idea on my mind. Shall try it out next time. :DD babe, I really miss you a lot. Do you miss me? :"( do you even regret breaking me? Do you? :"( are you happy without me being beside you. Having a fun time with friends huh. :'D why you ask me that questions on wednesday? Are you jealous or something? You seriously don't want me le ma? Giving up on me? :( hope you can answer all the question above. But will you even text and talk to me? :( ahhhh. Negative? Then how to be positive you tell me? :( HOWWHOWW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! D': *AAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH I feel like shouting!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Going Insane Soon

2011-11-10T17:49:00.000+08:00

Been thinking of you for days. Still don't get it why you break me. Okay, I maybe irritating for now. Simply, I want you back. :( to you , idk what you will think of. But to me is totally different. You're just that important. How important, is like you without a heart you can't survive right. Yupp, something like that. Ha, nothing much to expect from you. Memories is just memories. I wanted real life. :(

Question Marks,

2011-11-09T22:41:00.000+08:00

Hi , you gave me so many question marks.
•why you want to break?
•why you lie to me?
•why you don't share things with me?
•why you don't tell me your feeling?
•why you don't never try to understand me?
•why you don't let me to understand your feeling?
•why you don't have feelings for me?
•why you can't love me back?
•why you want to "run away"?means(trying to hide everything)
•why you gave me no clue about what are you thinking?
•whywhywhy? Can I know?.
Tell you, not being negative I just want to know what you feel towards me.

Feeling Extra

2011-11-09T22:26:00.000+08:00

Come back from tuition, Mother asked me question and. I got irritated. As I'm already not in a good mood since 5.00++pm. She irritated me. I got pissed off. Yah, then she started to speak louder. With anger , I talk back, yup. And father came in and started to explain. Then, now everything is all my fault. Wah!!! Cool huh. Hmm, if your so angry everything you talked to me, then let me ask you "why in the first place you want to give birth to me?" Might as well just killed me when I was younger in your stomach. And let your another child be born. Because I don't feel like living anyway. Things that comes to me, had never been a good want. I get suffer everytime. I cried, got asked "what's the point of crying, when you didn't even try to make it right?" Well, then I shouldn't have done anything in the first place, I might as well be the stone then. Lost you, then what's the point of living? Okay, this sentence maybe stupid to you but not to me. Want to know why I saying this, then come let you be me oneday. And everything that comes to you all goes wrong. You know how I feel. Please, I someone is a girl. -.- okay so. Ya. So? -.- nvm, anyway. Hmm okay, stop here then.

Today's Schedule

2011-11-09T22:14:00.000+08:00

Today, wake up late rushing to school for training. Never eat. 12.00pm end training, reach home at around 1.00pm. Bathe , charged phone, everything done. Went out of house at 1.30 ++pm. Movie starts at 2pm And I'm reach there at around 2.15 ++pm. After movie, never eat, drank gong cha. Then bought food from toapayoh. And back home, charged phone, took a nap from 7.00pm to 7.20pm. Went for tuition. Till 9.10pm back home again. And have my proper dinneer then.

Cant Live On Without You (cont)

2011-11-09T18:48:00.001+08:00

but didnt mean it. because just wanted to be with you. no reason because iloveyou.<3
Well, it really hurts huh. what you say. if you have no feelings for me then what am I gonna do. I trusted you so much. not even one chance you gave me. should cry or should laugh. I don't know. I asked for stead, you don't want. wait for you, you don't want to come back. arg, cry ah. :'( what are you thinking? what? tell me ah.

Cant Live On Without You.

2011-11-08T17:57:00.001+08:00

hi>.< baybee. long time no chat liao worh. hmm, feel uncomfortable without you leh. come back to me as soon as possible please. mm, got problem we face it together . dont leave me alone. ehh, yesterday i go out with mummy & brother, i saw a lot of cute couple.^w^ got one moment i feel that you should find a better girl < feel so uneasy.:( because they are so pretty so chio. feel like i'm not suit with you :( well, continue later on. need to go. toddlers. <3 muah>-<

Explain To Me,

2011-10-30T12:42:00.000+08:00

Hiding secret from me.
Went out with her before?
Accept her gift? Ha, what a joke.
Hey, I'm not stupid.
Okay, I'm jealous.
Why? Can't I be jealous.
Knowing that my own boyfriend went out with any other girl? -.-
What the fuck.
If I never ask for it, are you gonna keep this secret forever? -.- *errr
I got no mood to type le.
Talking about that bytch , I'm sorry. I'm not having a good mood anyway. -.-
She had totally ruin my day & mood. -.-

It Shocked Me ,

2011-10-24T20:55:00.000+08:00

Freak, my heart almost stopped at 8.11pm .
Seriously, it stopped beating for 1minute ha describing only. Want play with me then don't stop the conversation. I'm sorry. See you make me don't dare to talk to you liao luh. Argg, so scary I almost dying of heart attacked. Haish, don't trick me again. I'm really scared now. Really, I 'm in fault but just don't play with me in that kind of situation . Fear of making you angry liao. You're just so precious to me. So important that I cannot lost you alright.

Talk To Me,

2011-10-24T13:50:00.000+08:00

Beibee , what happen to you? Text you don't want reply call you don't want answer?
Still mad? Today go school got talk to your classmates (especially girls) ma? Got mood liao ma? Can call or text me NOW? I really really very miss you eh! Can I go fetch you not? I really want to eat and chit chat with you leh. Wanna hold your hand wanna sweet talk with you. Seriously, I'm suffering. I know you can live on without me but please I can't .

IWANTYOU NOW!!

2011-10-23T19:20:00.000+08:00

Beibee , why no mood?
Cause of Thangi?
Wahlao eh thangi-.-
I miss you so much leh.
Why always like this want ?
Me , at first happy happy that you coming but then you never reply my text or answer my call. I got so moody T.T totally no mood at all. I tell you .
OSCAR!!! IMISSYOU LIKE HELL!!
Can meet tomorrow after school? Nope? Ha , nvm :'(
I go find you? Hmm nvm forget it??
Ahhh , I really wanna meet you luh. I tomorrow no school wanna secretly sneaked out of house. Xp blehhhhhh! Wanna go find you eh. T-T

Happy , Excited ,

2011-10-22T16:06:00.001+08:00

Hihi beibee , never reply again? ^o^
Hmm anyway , tomorrow will be meeting you:DD
Happy muchxD
Hope tomorrow will be a nice day .
Hope everything goes smoothly lahh!
Have to pray hard?
Hmm , what will you do when you see me?
Have to hold your hand too :D
Ha , if you forget . I will make the first move then.(:
Have to grab your hand tightly so that you won't run away, blehhhhh!
So , just have fun ba and I will tried to over come the fear towards you:p
And , just treat me normally!
Ha , anyway see you tomorrow
Beibee wohaoaini oh!^o^

OhMyGawk ,

2011-10-20T17:32:00.001+08:00

Oohh , I'm jealous?
Ha , nope hmm just feel so envious about anna?
Ahahaha , cause she's your sister?
I just wanna be as close as you :I
Ehh , wanna be like a family with you but its impossible luh .
This is just my thinking , blehh T.T
Anyway , I so admire anna eh ! Ha , she's so 'brave'??
Yupp , so daring !!
AWw wanna be just like her! Ahahaha
Joke ba? But I'm serious eh , blehhh
Living in the same house with you?
Emm what's the feeling anyway?
Blehh , I'm thinking too far liao!

Ha , I got back my results liao!
Ahh , sianz ALL drop?
Freak Zzzz
Haishh , I hope my CA2 can help me pull my marks UPPP!
Talking about result , hope deardear can transfer to guangyang,
Dear , the uni is not nice , I know but nvm!
To me , whatever clothes you wear its nice and awesomeee!<3I'm sweet huh? BlehhhLike to be sweet with you! :pJust wanna see you everyday after school.Well , I want to be with you like FOREVER?>.<
Really don't wanna break with you ma just hold my hand and I'll lead the way!
I mean seriously? Blehhh
Huggy Huggy!:B
Kisses kisses!=D
PRAY HARD that you can be able to transfer! :<
Like really? NOW????

SUCKZZ

2011-10-18T19:02:00.000+08:00

Ahh , sianz lah go school still have volleyball!
My whole body is aching lahh!
Whattheshit!
Sibei tired leh!
Eyes like want close don't want close de!
Argg!
Life suckss to the core!
Ahhh should I go?
Don't feel like going haish!
Sianz diao!
Want to sleep leh! #yawn

Talk To Me ,

2011-10-16T12:50:00.000+08:00

You're my everything!
I hope to chat / talk on the phone with you
I don't know how you feel when you talk to me
Do you really laugh or smile when its really funny?
Do you really have feelings for me?
Are you really serious?
I am very lost whenever I chat with you
Doesn't know how to reply scare later I pissed you off again , scare I will say something wrong
I wanna go out with you some day , I tried to persuade my mother to allow me to go
Do you really want me to come?
If I really go what will happen
If I don't go what will happen?
Am I gonna be your forever?
You really not gonna break or leave me?
Not regret being together with me?
I really hope to rewind time and not making the same mistake again!
It makes me & you to drift so far
We are drifting away!
We are not close like before
We are strangers T-T
We are not well-known to each other :'(
But although its like that , still I'm not gonna just let you go!
I truthly love you soo damn much
Can you like feel how is my feeling?
Nope ba? :'(
Phone spoile le how to chat T.T
Imissyou So much!
You know you know ma :''''(

Don't Leave Me Alone ,

2011-10-15T13:01:00.000+08:00

Why are you like trying to advoid me?
You don't love me already?
I am not the perfect girl already?
As I had pissed you off twice!
Break you off twice!
Now , you hate me already right!
You don't want to talk to me already right
I had break your heart forth times le! :'(
But all this I have a reason ,
Is not I try to pissed you off , is just wanna know what you doing!
Okay , I may be in the fault .
I'm not suppose to say that!
But let me know , just say it and I will know it :(
Why are you always keeping your feelings and not saying it out?
I am really sorry but I'm just too despo for you ,
You really wanna break me?
Are you serious?
Really don't love me liao? :(
Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
Sorry!
I want to hear you calling me babe again!:(
Am I forgiven?
Am I??
Is it too late?

Why? Are You Gonna Break Me?

2011-10-15T01:03:00.000+08:00

Imissyou! :'(
You're really giving up on me! :'(
I think I had no right to stop you anyway!
What to do?
Only can wish you to be happy with the next girl?
Ahhhh! I wanna cry !
Emm , anyway you're a nice guy huh!
Emm goodluck! :DD
Need some peace ah :))
Goodnights

Sorry , Will You Give Me One More Chance!

2011-10-14T13:07:00.000+08:00

I know some times I'm abit weird or siao!
But still deep down my heart I still do love you alot! I'm also hurt when I quarrel with you
So , please bare with my attitude! And please tell me when you are mad or sad!
I need to know it! Seriously , It meant a lot to me! No lies, and once I say I'm gonna believe you , I do it for sure! I will believe what you say! So don't think that I won't believe you!:D
Don't ever quarrel with me already alright! Sorry babe! To hurt your heart! But really stop me when I'm trying to start a quarrel with you! Just scold me and ask to stop! Please do it!
Some times , I'm just out of my mind! I will suddenly go crazy for apparently no reason!
Are you hurt just now?
Sorry to pissed you off , I didn't know you will be so angry!
As this is the first time you scold me so fierce! I seriously shocked!
Don't give up can? if you give up then I will really go insane
Can I ask , you still love me?
I feel that you don't love me le!
I feel that you are trying to avoid me?
I think whatever I say now you will simply just don't care?
Sometimes , I'm abit harsh! idk why like that?
After that day? I become an unreasonable girl?
I had become another person already??
But my heart had never changed!
It is only you!
But I really hope that my last boyfriend is you!
And you promise me before not to leave me alone!
I may be abit irritating because I'm bored or wanteed to shared my feelings to you but you always seems so busy and like doesn't wanna talk to me! I'm just scared! So , just wanna you to let me know your mood only!
I just wanna be with you sweet talk with you do everything with you !
Nothing much :DD
I am willing to do everything for you!
But not gonna leave you!
Sometimes , I feel so angry and wanna give up! But that's not my real feeling!
My real feeling is to follow everywhere you go no matter how hard or how tough the road is , as long as you are always be beside me!
Chat with me when you are free!
Yesterday's problem let's just forget it and start anew alright?
I will control my feeling so hope you will forgive whatever I do last time!
Textt mee!
Pleaseee! Afterschool! :D
Really wanna chatchat with you! (:
Iloveyou<3 babeeee!
Too despo for you!
If I were so despo for you last time then I think it would be different now!
You and me ! I want to last long with you!
I know you are not despo for me but I just wanna be the last girl!
Hope to keep this relationship forever!

Hate This Feeling ,

2011-10-12T20:36:00.000+08:00

You're mad with me again?:(
Ahh , are you trying to break me?
Why we just forget it?
Oh maybe its me? Again!
Em , I gave you time . I need some time to calm myself down . I know didn't say !
Because wanted to chat with you longer but half way through you stopped and I knew that I've did something wrong .
People make mistake as you say by saying sorry won't help so know , I would do anything you say ! but don't ask me to find a better guy.
But whenever you're sad , angry you can't control it!
But when you sit down and recap it , you knew that you've did something that is wrong!
I maybe making things so complicated
I don't know how you feel towards me
But if a guy really love that girl , he would let go but do you really love me? if you are , then please don't let go of my hand because you told me before a person needs two hand to clap so if you let go then how am suppose to clap with one hand?
Please reply or call me :(
I would want to apologise to you!:(

denisetan:(

Sad Mood ,

2011-10-11T16:41:00.000+08:00

Where are you??
Are you at kallang?
Where?
Never text me? :'(
What are you doing?
Should I wait?
Are you there?
Should I study and put you in one corner ?
Or
Should think and wait for you and put my revision in one corner?
Can't make up my mind :'(
Seriously , WHERE ARE YOU? o.o
Haishh , at first was soo eager to meet you:(
But it seems that m just too eager and in the end got nothing :'(
Should I cry or should I be angry?
You never gonna take your words seriously :'(
I take it so serious!
But you had just take away my trust to you!
I just wanna meet you once
Was that sooooooo difficult?
Or you don't wanna meet me cause you doesn't seems to care about it at all!
Well , I'm totally speechless now!
You gonna gve me a very valid reason !
My mood had turn bad!
I wanted to scold you but I don't want to .
I'm just sho sad :'( #SOB
You had just ruin everything!
Just because you didn't show up!

What To Do ,

2011-10-10T21:05:00.000+08:00

Ahhh! I'm bored!
You're not online! :'(
Well , think I'm not gonna online liao :'(
Tired , don't feel studying :'(
Haishh , nothing to say luhh! :o
Update also nothing to say liao cause 我没有那个心情去想要写什么！
Em , stop here! No mood! Werido me!
Ah , tomorrow! Em blehhhh! I'm not scare liao abit ba^o^
Cause I want to overcome it :DDD!
My house hor>< hehehehe C:
Wah? Suddenly got mood huh me? Ahahahah xD
Siao liao heheheh! annyway , see you tomorrow!(:
Please come! if not you die! maybe eating ba ><
alright then
Bye~^^

Cry ? OR Jealousy?

2011-10-06T16:19:00.000+08:00

It came to my mind all of a sudden ,
Maybe is because I'm thinking you?
And it goes like this ;

Remember I asked you before about the bytch? (Yongsian) -.-
Yuppp , its her! O.o Shocked? Em think you're not AT ALL!
If I'm not wrong I think is during primary 5 / 6
After school somemore-.-'
Yaaaaahh , I think at the library or hall ,
*pause* anyway , I know I'm not suppose to think of this??? but its about the bytch so it happened all of a sudden ):
As I was typing it , my mind was thinking 'hell man , I feel punching you in the face! ):' (yong sian) start to tears somemore
*continue* and I don't know why you wanna give her!
what makes you wanna give it to her!
It suppose to be MINE!
IT'S MINE
At first its just me mine! everything but you've sntach it away!
Why did you give it to her?
WHY?
Its suppose to be MINE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
MMMMMMMMMIIIIIIIIIIIIIIINNNNNNNNNNNNNEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!
Although she's annoying & irritating , still you're not suppose to give it !!!!!!!
WWhY did you gave it ?
Telling me she's annoying is just an excuse! ):
I don't want!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :'(
You actually hugged her?
OOH MMY GGAWK!
You've HUGGED her!
I can't believe that!
I don't care if is just slightly touch her? or what
Anyway , the truth is YOU'VE HUGGED the bytch! :'(
I've never gave away my hug to anys boy!
I've kept it just for you, do you know that?
It's only for YOU!
YOU meant SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO much to me !!!!!!!!!!!!!
If you were by my side NOW , I would hug you soo tight that I don't even wanna let you go!
But on my side , there's no one
If can , would have just killed the bytch !
I don't care if i go to jail or what , she's just an extra person in this world! the world is full over load cause a fat bytch is in this world
It's just like you in the lift , if you want to close the door you must ask someone to go out , its the same ! You're have killed someone in order to live on (:
I can put down all the things on my hand but the only thing can't put down is YOU!
Once you're gone I'm gone too):
I tell you that is past , don't want you to do it again , PLEASE!
I hope you ARE gonna be mine and only ME , not other forever!
I will treasure you well like how you treasure me before during primary school alright(:
Iloveyou babe!!!!
Meet upppppppp sooonnnnnnn !!!!!
Imiss you! )':
Gonna give you a tight hug on MONDAY!!!!!!
So , you don't stress me! if i get nervous then I'm not gonna give liao :p

Anger ,

2011-10-03T16:23:00.000+08:00

its kinda stupid .
You're mad at me because of this???
Okay , I know betrayed you??
Anyway , is that called betray?
Making small matter into big matter?

How old are you??
Still dare to say you're older than me?
Please la ! Go and change a mature brain please -.-''
Okay , I know you're kind enough to tell me that she don't like me .
But you didn't tell me NOT to tell her?

You think I can read your mind?
Common sense right!!!
Don't always put the blame on other , look at yourself !
You didn't even give the right and clear information , is you didn't say it properly so don't even try to put the blame on the others

You say she first saw me and she don't like me then why does she still bother to add me? like my statue? -.-
Walao! you're sooooo ridiculous!
I think is because you're gulity so you are so angry with me for nothing?

I didn't EVEN force you to said it out is you your ownself said it
I think is YOU betray kaili NOT me okayyy!!! -.-
Fucker sia you! always spoil my MOOD!
Believe me one day , you're gonna lost ALL your friend ,
Attitude problem -.-'' and still want snatch my boyfriend-.-

You go surgery la not pretty still want act *cb* sia _l_
Lose you one friend so what ! you think i care? -.-
Don't even wanna care about it alright?
I've been torlerating you -.-
Asshole!

Just fuck off alright!
Your not invited into my world _l_
Wasting my time on you , stupid bitch!
Sorry bitch , don't give a damn you-.-
Diam la! bastard!

Scared ,

2011-09-25T22:37:00.000+08:00

I thought secondary school life is better than primary school but I'm wrong !!
Its the same totally!
I wonder what have done wrong?
My attitude?
Or what?

Tell me!! ):
Sigh! its the same feeling back to me again!
It had never change!
NEVER!!!!! :''''''''(
It makes me so stress!

I know what to do!
I hope that someone can council me! ):
I had been council by my mum but still feel so not nice
What should do now?

I'm so lost now! )''':
Tomorrow still need go school , sianz leh!
I DON'T WANT GO SCHOOL!!!!
School is like a night mare to me):

If there is no school no work place ,
Then in this world there won't be trouble anymore!
But still its impossible):
Can you talk to me? I'm feeling stress now):

Sick???

2011-09-18T20:45:00.000+08:00

Em , am I sick?
Emmmm nvm , its not this
Babee , I wanna say sorry to you for being so rude to you
I know that you need time , I will give you !

So , I'm sorry ! will you forgive me?
Forget about that night and be like how you treat me can?
Sorry I didn't mean it ! sorry

I want to be with you only
No one else so please forgive me can?
Just you!

Crysssssssss ,

2011-09-18T12:49:00.000+08:00

I'm sorry ,
I'm lost !
I really don't know what to do le ! )''''':
You want to end le ma?????
Idk !!!
I only know that iloveyou<3
I don't know did you see all this !
But I'm totally lost !
Speechless MAX )'''''''''':

Wondering ,

2011-09-18T10:22:00.000+08:00

Have you seen my post?
I don't know how you feel?
Are you sad ? Are you angry ?
Tell me please !
I know I shouldn't say that but just wanna know what's the reason only

I didn't mean to hurt you or quarrel with you !
It's okay if you can find the past feeling will help you ,
Just don't leave me alone !
I'm so regret about saying those words of sentences to you !
I just curious and I can't control and type nonsense of things to you and didn't think of you feel ! ):

You asked me before why want you so much
It's because you meant everything to me
You gave me the feeling I've never had before
You always changed my mood example like;
Whenever don't feel like smiling , you've always will make me smile by sweet talking to me(:

You are totally different from other person
Em how to say
It's like you had the ability to make someone laugh for no reason
You won't let other girls to step into your secret world !
There's many but these two are what I can prove that you are totally a unique person !

So , will you forgive me for what I've done ?
Text me ?
Please !!! )''''''''''':

):

2011-09-18T00:35:00.000+08:00

please response to me
I know you feel bad or something else
But please don't give up on me
I will give you time so please leave me alone !
Please ! I will be scared if I'm all alone !

Sorry for what I've said
But I can't live without you
I won't said that anymore so
Please give me one last chance !
Please)'''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''':

Sorry

2011-09-18T00:12:00.000+08:00

I've said something wrong again ,
Sigh ! what's wrong with me again ?
Its always the same):
I hate it leh
But once something is been said its can't be taken back

So , I think this time I'm really in a dead meat ):
I've ruined eveything again !
I'm stupid !
You shouldn't be with me )':
But want to be with you

I don't know how you think of me !
You've been so quiet !
Ah, don't want to say anymore le
I'm just making every thing worse):

Afraid ,

2011-09-17T20:49:00.000+08:00

I'm afraid to tell you ,
I'm afraid to talk to you ,
I'm afraid to meet you ,
I'm afraid that I will hurt you again ,
I'm afriad to do things that is about you .

Whenever you are online , I've always wanted to talk to you chat with you .
If I am chatting with you I will go speechless ! ):
I had always wanted you to start the conversation and me ending the conversation !

I wanted to have random questions on my mind and so I can chat , talk to you ! but nothing comes out of my mind
Its always a blank mind when chat with you !
When you are not online facebook is so boring for me ):
Wanted to do every single things with you

I wanted to be a brave girl tried to be a brave girl but why its just so impossible to do ?
Wanna be brave so that I can be able to hold your hand , talk to you as if I'm like talking to my best friend .
Joking , laughing happily ):

One thing to say emm if I sick what will you do ??
Em randomly asking
Emm I am so weak now
I will stop here then ,
Byee(:

Iloveyou><

In Pain ,

2011-09-17T13:15:00.000+08:00

Its raining!(:
Nice weather huhC:
Haishh!
But I'm not feeling very well ):
Keep coughing):
My throat is so pain

Haishh! so boring nothing to write le ok gonna stop here then :o
Bored MAX
Nobody text me *yawn*

Okk byee
>< loveyou

Iloveyou ,

2011-09-16T16:28:00.000+08:00

All of a sudden I miss my babee so much ,
Was in my room with the air con being Switch on ,
I wish you were by my side right this moment):
But you having cca

Even if you don't have cca I think you also won't come :p
I'm curious ,
Sometime when I text you half way I will feel like ending it but some time will wanna continue it and never stop the conversation ):

Whenever you are happily texting a person either is someone you like or not ,
The other party will either not reply or just reply by saying 'kk' / 'oh'
Its always the same when you are texting someone
I wonder why?
Question mark appearing in my mind!
Emm , sometimes regret asking you random question:<
[I'm sorry , but have no offence as this is kinda of my dairy so I'm saying out my feeling , no need to feel stress or what]
You won't feel anything cause its just words

Well then I will stop here!

Byee!
denise(:
Iloveyou><

Curious ,

2011-09-15T19:52:00.000+08:00

Today was so called a fun day?
Playing floor ball during P.E. lesson ,
Anyway , its fun !

Emm , having a question mark in my head
Eh , if a person keep disturbing you harass you ?
What will you think ?
Sometimes , its really very irritating and annoying !
I don't like him!

Really totally no feeling for him
I just curious about it !
Can you tell me please?
I'm so blur and curious !

Well , I'm gonna stop here then !

Byee!!
Imissyou alotts

denise(:

Confession#7 ;
People have alot of questions in mind but doesn't know who to ask , so there must be someone there to help which is you , babee><

Jealous ,

2011-09-14T22:14:00.000+08:00

I'm always stalking you on facebook ,
Will wanna know who you 'chat' with what you doing?
Or some other things?
But whenever see you comment on a girl's wall ,
I will feel so unconfortable!

You may be saying that its nothing ,
I know its nothing too
But you know how I feel ?
The feeling was so how like you can hardly breathe that type ):

You will jealous? I will too
I know ask you not to talk to girl its impossible la
Just talk in school , text , but not so open???
I had never know how you feel leh
You didn't even tell me how you feel lor ):
I've been posting this like just for fun ba ?

What's the feeling of being disturbed by some nuisence friends?
Especially those are immature type , what the shit!

Can't they just sit there and pay attention to the lesson ?
Always get distracted because of their immature behaviour!
Emm one thing to add in ,

I will always think about you and thinking about you right ,
I also get so nervous sia! why har?
If I were to face you , I think I will be more nervous??
Why is it so?

Okayy, gonna stop here!
Byee!

denise(:

Confession#6 ;
People get jealous because their loved ones has been talk to the other party so sweet and nice :(

Feel Like Hugging You ,

2011-09-14T00:25:00.000+08:00

I was thinking if tomorrow ,
Whether if I can ask you to hug me on the spot .
Will make you & me to be invisible so that you won't feel shy
So that I can be able to hug you if you won't dare to ,
I've always wanted to text you call you and go out with you

But I can't do all these FREELY!
I want to do it any time I want ,
I can't seriously ):
If my mind is all about you , I won't even care about my surroundings you know why because as I told you before you are important than anyone else ):

When I was texting people no matter if I'm asking about homework or what , if my brother saw me texting he would tell me to put away my phone and study . I would do as what he say sometimes . As my brother wants me to have good grades
So, if I was to think about my brother I would be so scare whenever I wanna text you .

Think about you , I feel half happy half scare):
Not really scare lah is like scare will lose my concentration?
I'm not blaming you! And , I'm not gonna blame you .
You did nothing , but I will still think of you
Although, it hurts but its worthy (:

I really felt very glad that you came into my world and did things with me (maybe in future or not , the past??)
I know sometimes I maybe saying things that is no link! I'm here saying sorry to you! :C
Hope you will understand me , my feelings & me(my attitiude)
I'm weird sometimes is because I'm missing you too much ba .

Okayyy got to go and sleep already
Its late:p
Goodnights!

Byee!!
Love you always
Muacks><

denise(:

Confession#5 ;
Missing , thinking about someone will in turns make you feel good , will make you forget about the stress you had .

Tired ):

2011-09-12T21:19:00.000+08:00

I'm so tired):
My whole body is aching
No energy
Feel like sleeping sia :o

Having D&T that time ,
I feel so helpless
At the first few period
I don't know why suddenly felt like I'm invisible):

Although I like to be invisible but I'm still a human ,
What is the feeling when no friends came to you?
Feel so lonely ):

During volley ball ,
That's one moment
I feel like crying out loud feel that I'm so useless
Can't even do a single thing properly):
I don't have this kind of thinking previously
But why am I thinking of this ?
It started on this morning ,

Why is it so? is it because of something you've said? or what?):
I hope not
I have the feeling of ending everything!
But still I have to face reality!!):
Em , sorry sudden speechless :p

Got to go but hope you will text me I miss you ><
Okay , byee!

denise(:

Confession#5; When someone's feeling tired the most thing that they doesn't want to do is to talk .

It's My Fault ):

2011-09-12T00:57:00.000+08:00

I'm sorry , babee!
For hurting you again ,
I thought you won't mind me asking you question like that
Sorry , didn't mean to hurt you

I doesnt know how you feel
What are you thinking
You have to tell me
If not I won't be knowing

I may have asked you the wrong question but why are you asking me to find another guy?
I don't get it
I can't understand
I may say that I had no feeling but still that doesn't mean you have to push me to the other guys

I know that you don't wanna have the feeling again,
I know even if you say you will trust me
But in your heart you may not have the 100 percent of trust to me
Nevermind I understand

I hope that you can tell me how you feel not everyday
Once a week?
Anything la
Maybe I will just stop texting you?
I'm scared that I will hurt you again):

Okay then will stop here ,
Got to sleep now! :o
Byee!
denise(:

Confession#4;
Hurting someone will make you feel bad and wanted to take back words which you've said .

Missing You,

2011-09-11T20:04:00.000+08:00

Wah! holidays coming to an end):
Sigh! what a drag man.
Why we have a one year of holiday? :p
Hhehheeh!
I've been too greedy

School's reopening tomorrow!
Haizz, boring MAX! :o
Anyone's ready for school?
Nah, school are just so boring):
Wondering why must we have education in this world
Its a waste of time!
People study and study but in the end still failed for the exam

so why still bother to study? I'm so bored ):
Nothing to do !
Text me?
Boring ah :0
Okay, will have to stop here then,

Byee!!

Denise(:
Loveyou ><

confession#3; Missing you makes me feel so heart pain):

iloveyou,

2011-09-11T06:40:00.000+08:00

Hi there!(:

Wah,
I'm awake at this moment?
Hey, that's early

Em, think you are sleep soundly on your comfy bed hugging your pillow? or something??

Right now, gonna say that its been 4months and 21days till now!
Time flies real fast!
Only when its night time for us to sleep time flies fast and when its time to go school and have lessons in class time flies damn slow

Sigh!):

I think m going out with my brother later on
Emm, going orchard?
At takashimaya!
Buying mooncake?
Waoohh! nice(:
At least can go out
I'm rotting at home
Hheheh:p

Okayyy! gonna stop here then•v•
I'm not tired but want to sleep now!!C:

Byee! :D
Muacks><

Denise(:

My First Time,

2011-09-11T01:22:00.000+08:00

Hellow^o^
Let me introduce myself;
I'm a girl named denise(:
I'm currently steading with my loved one<3
Studied in beattysec.
Still young, just 13.

Its my first time blogging(:
Wah! seems sooo interesting.
Opps, em yup never blog before :p

Em, I'm thinking about you right this moment, you know that?:)
Hhehe
I'm bored anyway

Its 1.17am
Wao! Its so late le.):
Can't sleep
Ah, okay will stop here then,
I'm speechless!
Will post more then

Byee(:
Love you always><